As I struggle to find peace in the midst of the chaos of my mind, I have very little to offer, and even that doesn’t feel like enough to give to the God who holds everything in the palm of his hand.
What am I to do without understanding? Worry, wonder, and wait. Can I actually sit in the waiting?
Lord help me…
Help me to hold each broken, fragmented piece that feels deep inside of my soul yet has little wisdom to offer inside of the uncomfortable spaces in my heart.
Lord, would you help me to release the fear that is keeping me from walking with you, trusting that you will hold my hand as I walk blind.
“Lord, I can see people, but they all look like trees” feels like a statement that rings truth.
Lord, I can see, but everything still looks and feels dark, unclear, and because of this, I feel uncertain.
But how can I feel uncertain when it is the Lord Himself, the only living God, who holds my hand and makes sure that all my needs are met?
You love me so much that you desire to be my shepherd…
Leading, guiding, and keeping me.
But the fear is telling me I’m alone, I’m unprotected, and I’m lost.
How do I regulate my nervous system in the eye of the tornado in my soul?
How do I find my way to peace?
Would you be the one who would sit with me while I co-regulate Lord? Would your presence meet my soul in the place I feel I can’t even access?
Show me how safe I am inside of your loving embrace.
Lord, I lay out my fleece for your words, unctionings, knowings, and be tender with me like the child I am.
I know you are with me,
Help me to surrender this too, Lord.
My need for understanding…..
In exchange
for your loving embrace: presence
You are near
May that be more than enough for me
Sincerely, a Surrednered Heart
